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mother-bringing hips
sway across the
earthy floor:
    what makes you a boy
    in the first place?
you dance so well that
she rises from the dirt
and the question is
never asked again.
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three-hundred clouds:
i count them across
your spine. (wondering,
naturally, when exactly
it was that you became
the sky).
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almost new year by sspeak almost new year :iconsspeak:sspeak 5 0 dec 2015 altar by sspeak dec 2015 altar :iconsspeak:sspeak 7 0
purple spine:
i waver
while the AC
spits heat back
into my eyes.
it is now
the car wheezes
and i itch
to take us both
into the fray.
the dark
admits sheepishly
in his slouched,
unforgiving form
that i am indeed
the only
late night shift(er)
he can't help but
touch all over.
he holds me close
through the drive,
promising not to
let me go
his chapped lips
release a choked whisper
at the base of my throat
that shakes
the whole damn road.
mother mother earth
rejects us helplessly
while we stumble further
into his own shadow.
(so... i grab onto
his coat lapels
and silence him
with consent that
draws us into a
sad, desperate
embrace -- the
           dirt stutters
           against the wind,
           greying into a grave.)
   bruised blue
        it is now
        12AM and i am
        his ghost.
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may 2015 journal by sspeak may 2015 journal :iconsspeak:sspeak 0 0 october 2015 altar by sspeak october 2015 altar :iconsspeak:sspeak 3 5 depersonalization by sspeak depersonalization :iconsspeak:sspeak 0 0 new york summer by sspeak new york summer :iconsspeak:sspeak 0 0 'home' by sspeak 'home' :iconsspeak:sspeak 1 0 summer 6am shifts by sspeak summer 6am shifts :iconsspeak:sspeak 3 0 11.28.15 by sspeak 11.28.15 :iconsspeak:sspeak 0 0 untitled by sspeak untitled :iconsspeak:sspeak 8 0 ophelia [8tracks mix list] by sspeak ophelia [8tracks mix list] :iconsspeak:sspeak 0 0 ophelia [8tracks mix] by sspeak ophelia [8tracks mix] :iconsspeak:sspeak 0 0 human hearts by sspeak human hearts :iconsspeak:sspeak 3 0

Journal History


  • Listening to: one last time by james young
  • Reading: bad drarry fanfiction
  • Drinking: orange juice af
i really wish i was more active on DA - but i barely remember to get to work and school on time as it is. lately, my depersonalization/disociation spells have been longer and very immersive (is that a word? who knows tbh).

i'm in new york, finally!! i've been waiting to come home since i moved. it's kind of scary because since i'm here now, it's almost like i was never gone in the first place. like, the last six months don't even feel real, which is kind of fcking with my dpdr a ton.

anyways, i wrote a lot of poetry on the plane ride here and i'll probably post it tomorrow because i really need sleep. along with a lot of pictures i've taken and some candid pics from when Aurelious-Auria and i took her guinea pig to a resturaunt and bookstore.


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thewolfcreek Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the fav...
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thx for the fave! 
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you're very welcome!
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Thank you for :+fav:ing, lovely! :heart:
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